Phew well that got the blood racing, not often DIY does that for me.
A nice 1.5 inch diameter dildo in the ass, glass wand in pussy, and vibrator on clit...........took me a whole 4 minutes to cum. First time in ages I've had such an intense orgasm, interesting to say the least.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
It's hard to find balance isn't it, to do what's right, give life time to level out a little and see where things head.
I'm trying to not lead Him on to expect this to just be a temporary glitch and next week everything will be hunky dory again, when I really don't know if or when that might happen.
The dynamics of building a friendship and possibly new relationship aren't going to be easy, but what do I do?
Do I walk away and not try? I think that unfair to us both. I'm sure it won't be easy no matter what choices we make I know that.
On the other side of the coin my Domme side is calling, possibly because I need an outlet, and is completely seperate from my relationship with Him.
Partly it's because my girl needs to be brought back into line, I've neglected her of late and she's misbehaving as she lacks control and direction, but I'm considering taking a male slave/submissive too, if the right one comes along. Amazing how a little cbt soothes the mind.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Well Whoopeedoo, today I actually managed to cum by myself and a decent orgasm it was at that, it took some doing though, 45 minutes with glass dildo inserted in my ass, nipple clamps and a vibrator held directly on my clit.
There were several times I almost gave up, it was getting frustrating, so many thoughts and emotions going through my mind.
Generally I find pain a good way to focus my mind on the current situation, switch off from every day things and concentrate on pleasure.
Doing it myself does not fit the bill at all, I need to give as well as receive, and at the moment I can do neither.
Tomorrow I may be meeting a slave, a pretty boy from Nottingham who wants to be sissified and abused, we'll see how it goes.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Well it's back to work tomorrow, to what resembles normality, looking forward to it, two weeks off work is a long time and I've been bored and ill, not a good combination.
I've spent a lot of time thinking this last few days too, and trying to work out what's for the best, not easy with a line of submissives begging to be mine and a slightly shorter line of Dominants interested in me belonging to them.
It's no wonder I'm confused lol, sometimes being two people is not only difficult, but nigh impossible.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
We're taking a time out for now, it hurt me to ask for it, but not as much as it hurt Him.
I don't know what will happen, we love each other, but such intensity has it's problems and we need to resolve those and see where it takes us.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
There will be no diary tonight as such, but there is a personal message for the reader of this................girl you need to get a life and stop living vicariously through mine.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
All day I've been reading erotic stories again, just not a good idea when you're not getting any
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
All day I've been reading erotic stories again, just not a good idea when you're not getting any sex.
Although it does have it's advantages I guess, it tends to make me quite creative and I've a couple of good outlines in my head for stories.
A thought has been going around my head all evening, what's the ultimate crime a submissive can commit in her Doms eyes? And what would the punishment be?
Under such circumstances would the Dom see fit to punish the submissive physically? Would He remove the collar she wore in His name. Would He cast her aside as unworthy?
If the submissive was truly remorseful would a good Dom punish the submissive and then work on what lay behind the problem. Why the submissive would break a rule or not do something she knew was required?
Would a bad Dom not even recognise it and carry on regardless.
All things I've thought about, mostly to do with the story line I have in mind, but also in general following some of the conversations I've had recently with people involved in the lifestyle.
I'm not sure there's a definitive answer, there's only what's right and appropriate for those in each individual relationship, but it gives me something to ponder and bring up to provoke valuable discussion in the chat room.
Tomorrow I see Master, it's like waiting for Father Christmas lol, just one more sleep and He'll be here.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
I've spent the entire day reading erotica, approving and editing stories for the website, to say I'm horny is an understatement.
The temptation to masturbate has been strong all day, but I've resisted.
My pussy has been wet all day, clit swollen and in need of attention, but only a couple of days before I see Master I hope, providing I continue to improve and this damn cough fades.
Mmmm countdown to orgasm time lol
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
I got so fired up tonight, a young Dom taking advantage of subs online, he doesn't mean any harm and has no comprehension of how much he can hurt someone.
The lecture I gave him must've lasted about an hour in total, can't remember the last time I let rip at someone like that.
He didn't just get both barrels, I reloaded and let him have a double helping.
At one stage he was threatening to self harm, but I stood my ground, if he didn't learn his lesson now then I doubt he ever would.
It's so easy to be rash, to do without thinking of the consequences, or to not even realise there will be any, long time since I learned that there invariably is.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
I must be getting better, I actually woke up feeling very horny this morning and was very tempted to masturbate.
The problem for me with masturbation is that it's so unfulfilling, I need to feel that I've given pleasure too in some way, and that most definitely any pleasure I get is given to me.
When Masters fingers are on my body it's a totally different sensation than touching myself, a thousand times better.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Fascinating couple of days, exploring my own inner thoughts and being swamped by submissives vying for my attention.
And it's strange, generally the more they talk to me the more they want to belong to me.
Is this because they sense I understand their need to submit?
Do they feel that as someone who submits so completely themselves can discover hidden depths within them they've yet to explore.
Whatever the answer I have to admit to feeling overwhelmed of late, it's good to have people like you, be interested in you, but there are times it's too much and too many and I need to withdraw to regain my own sense of self.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Ok this question has been going around in my head on and off for weeks and just begs to be asked out loud.
Who considers themselves to be the perfect sub/slave, doing everything their Dom/Master asks?
And if you do think you're everything that He/She wants doesn't that make you prideful and complacent?
Thinking you've achieved the goal, what reason to continue striving to grow?
Isn't pride in ones achievement self indulgent, and against the definition of sub/slave, when the whole focus of ones being is to please your Dominant and the only pride one should feel?
What of failure real or imagined, how is that handled by both parties.
What designates failure anyway?
Who decides if the sub/slave has passed or failed (for want of a better description) anyway?
Sometimes no matter how much I'm told I did well I still feel a sense of failure or inadequacy.
That I could have done more, better, with less resistance, more compliance.
Something I wrote a little while ago and seems to hold more truth with each day........
Here I lie, naked and wanton, a slut for your pleasure only.The need, the lust within, the soft smooth skin without, that aches for your touch, to hear your voice whispering in my ear. Nothing you ask too much, everything I do not enough.Tell me how I may fulfill your every desire, please you, bind you to me in such a way no other will do.
Ok today I got my soapbox out, not something I often do as I feel you can be perceived as opinionated and intolerant, yet there are some things worth speaking out about.
Strange though, balancing what should be said against offending others, it's a very fine line no matter how you play it and despite my bravado stating I'll not be told what I can and cannot say online there was still a tiny worry that Master may disagree with that when I share with Him later what happened.
I suspect that's part of the appeal for Him, that I have a mind of my own and that I'm not afraid to use it. Some have even described me as untameable in the past, thing is they just didn't hold the key to gain access to my inner sanctum.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Ok cough and pains explained, I've a touch of pleuresy so on antibiotics big enough to dose a horse.
At least I'm pretty sure it'll all clear up in a few days, so that's something.
Thank heavens for the NHS.
In the chat room today a few people asked after Master, I'm pleased that they've accepted him so readily, not only that they seem to have made him welcome.
I wasn't sure how it would be as I've been there so much longer and most knew only about my Domme side.
Needless to say more than a few jaws hit the floor when I announced that not only am I a switch, but I have my own Dom. I think those few minutes will stay with me and make me smile for a very long time.
I do love to surprise people, just when they think they have me tagged I do the unexpected.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Still ill, just want to curl up and be held by Master, but not possible at the moment.
Amazing isn't it how we retreat to childhood comforts when unwell, I drank Lucozade and snuggled up on the couch under a blanket when I got home from work.
Came home early, took me 3 hours to get there thanks to some selfish so and so having an accident on the motorway.
I managed 2 hours of work and decided I couldn't continue, in fact if it hadn't been such a struggle getting there I'd probably have come home sooner, I just hate to give in.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Thank goodness no deep throating today, because this cough is awful and there's a good chance I'd be biting something off that would get me the worst punishment immaginable lol.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Well the cold seems to be on the run, but I feel like I've had a good kicking all over, nothing like after a good play session when I may be sore, but I also have a sense of satisfaction.
Slept most of the day, but will definitely sleep again tonight, wish I was curled up and being petted.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Ironic isn't it, I've a whole weekend free I could spend with Master and yet here I am at home in bed alone.
Yet again I've fallen foul of some dreaded lurgy and I've a sore throat and headache, so spending my weekend trying to fight it off.
Not sure what Master had in mind, but I know there would've been lots of play and just curling up in bed together.
Sometimes just wrapping around each other is enough, the intimacy of naked flesh pressed against my body.
Knowing it can change at any moment to raw passionate sex, sensual love making, or with a word I'm His slave to do with as He pleases, (and doesn't he just) is not only exciting it's also very fulfilling. The dynamics of our relationship are complex and finely balanced, one thing it will never be is boring that's for sure.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Well at last I get to show off my new slave collar, it's very heavy as it's made of solid stainless steel, but I love the weight of it around my neck as it's a constant reminder of His ownership of me.
Look at the dinky little tag too, it's so cute lol.
I was totally naked under that full length pvc hobble dress, was still hot though.
I got so hot in fact that I overheated and ended up spending the rest of the evening topless at the New Years Eve party, and for a while I was instructed to wait on the other guests, that wasn't half as bad as it might've been either.
At first I felt really exposed, and yes there was some teasing, but no touching except by Master and after a while I actually didn't feel so self conscious either.This week I actually feel really horny all the time, I've not masturbated but I have been tempted, I think Master has awoken the beast within me.
It's many many years since I had a regular sex life, and the thought of being desired all the time is certainly an exciting thought.
After all the nipple play yesterday they're still incredibly sensitive, not painful but I am very aware of them and every movement sends shivers through me.
My brain is rather tired tonight, all work and no play for umm one day lol, bring on the weekend!
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
I'm somewhat confused, today I almost entered sub space again, a pleasant relaxed sensation without totally losing it, very different to what happened the other day.
What confuses me is why Master would deliberately try to take me back to sub space when He knew that our time together was limited, it felt as though His greatest concern was to erase the bad memory than how long it would take for me to come out of it so I could drive home.
Did it work? Yes I guess to some extent, and there was definitely no problem with me being fit to drive, but it might not have been that way. Something we need to talk about when we next meet.
Today my nipples were played with for a long time again, pinched, rolled and clamped.
Intense pain and yet great pleasure, that's how He got me in the zone and wow both parts of my Japanese clover clamps on one nipple.
I love Him coaxing me to submit to it and work through the pain till I reach the pleasure on the other side, although sometimes it's not easy.
Part of it is pyschological, but a large chunk is the physical sensation, it must be why I prefer canes and floggers that sting when used on me, rather than the heavier thuddy ones.
I'm such a pain slut in that respect lol, I don't like pain that's for sure, but it definitely works for me, I get soaking wet and immensely turned on.
Not yet had an orgasm through pain alone, but I do wonder if it's possible for me.
On top of all this there's been a freak thunderstorm here tonight, what the heck is going on? It's January for heavens sake.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
Eventually the light dawns...........
There are times I wonder what goes through peoples minds, I went to a very close friends house for dinner tonight so we could belatedly exchange Christmas presents.
We chatted a while catching up on each others news and then he told me about the latest shag he's got arranged for tomorrow night. I should point out that he's not only one of my closest friends he's also an ex, although that side of our relationship ended a very long time ago.
He has a long term girlfriend and yet meets women from the internet for casual sex, not just the odd one now and then he can't resist, but by his reckoning literally a couple of hundred.
This woman he's shagged before, and she's asked him to tie her to the bed tomorrow while he fucks her. I asked him a couple of questions about what he has planned and about her, then made some suggestions of my own ( I can be quite creative).
He laughed and looked at me, called me a dirty bitch and lay there on the couch mulling it over, wondering if she'd agree to being restrained in the position I'd suggested and just exactly how much access this would allow him to her body.
My idea is to have her kneel and tie each wrist to the corresponding ankle, so she has to lean forward thus exposing both her pussy and her anus for his pleasure and allowing him free choice which one to use.
Some time later in the evening and the conversation came around to my relationship with Master, and I explained a few aspects of the lifestyle and some of the things people do when playing.
I laughed like hell when he told me he could never do any of that, as though it was some alien concept, so I pointed out what we'd already discussed, that tomorrow night he will be tying some woman to the bed, and restraining her in other interesting positions while he ravishes her body (all with her consent of course).
Gradually light dawned and he saw my point, how it's sometimes a fine line between what's considered Vanilla and what is referred to as BDSM, in fact sometimes it's just a matter of perspective.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
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Master decided as I was staying over we should have a play session, other than a little play at new year we'd been mostly Vanilla for a couple of weeks.
The day before He'd caned me and thought then by my reactions that I was more than half way to sub space, (which would've been a first time for me) and He decided to see if He could take me the whole way.
I was handcuffed to the bed and Master took out a blindfold and my nipple clamps. Now here is the time I should say Master had spent several hours torturing my nipples and the sight of those clamps just seemed to send me into orbit.
Master asked me if I was ok, I replied yes...........thankfully He knew better and immediately released me and took me in his arms and that's when I really began to feel the effects of subbing out.
The only way I can describe it is as a bad trip, not that I've ever done drugs, but this was worse than being drunk.
Even when I've gone over my alcohol limit I've never felt like this before, slurring words and just feeling totally out of control.
He talked me through it, explaining why I felt the way I did and that it was because I'd not slipped gently into sub-space, but crashed on through hence this awful spaced out feeling I was rapidly beginning to hate........but even worse was to follow.
I've still not come to terms with the whole scenario, how as fast as I hit sub space I then began to experience sub drop, crying and emotional and feeling like a complete failure, which did not make Master happy at all, and the more He tried to reassure me the worse I felt.
I know Master feels He let me down, but it was all so quick and I know for a fact He didn't feel we'd done enough to get me to this stage, although He had planned on taking me there slowly thus ensuring a happy experience. This was not the way either of us envisaged it.
Not sure what will happen now, conversation I'm sure, but not sure I could go through that again. It took me all my time to stop myself dressing and leaving.
The logical side of me was whispering in the background that it was ok, just a side effect of the endorphins in my brain.
The emotional scared side of me just wanted to run away, thankfully the logical side won as I was in no fit state to drive, not that Master would have allowed me to leave anyway.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
New Years eve Master and I went to a party together hosted by his ex partner.
Before the party began we took a few minutes to be alone so Master could fasten the steel slave collar around my neck, wow it's heavy but it feels good a constant reminder of His ownership of me. From now the collar may not be removed without His permission, although I do have a key to remove it in case of emergency.
I wore a full length pvc hobble dress with a zip running down the front so could be unzipped as much or little as Master chose from the top and bottom. Underneath I was totally naked except for a catheter inserted into my urethra so Master had control of my body and I was forced to ask permission to go to the toilet for the evening. I'm sure many would consider it humiliating, but not me, I love giving myself to Him this way.
The guests arrived a mixture of Dominants and submissives and when all the introductions had been made we sat around with drinks talking, shy as I felt at first everyone was very nice and I soon relaxed.
A little while on and I began to feel very hot, I suppose that's the problem with wearing pvc. I needed some air but even that didn't help and I began to feel unwell and faint.
Thankfully Master took charge and took me upstairs to strip and cool down, the catheter was quickly removed and Master watched me carefully for any ill effects.
Sat on the toilet with Master kneeling in front of me talking softly to me and taking care of me it wasn't long before I felt more normal, but Master insisted I put something else on and the pvc dress was put away.
Now everyone else was in fetish wear, I didn't want to be the only one in vanilla clothes, so I put on my black skirt again and the purple and black bra I'd brought with me, and nothing else. At least this way I didn't feel the odd one out, and Master loves to see me in this bra anyway.
The food laid on for the buffet was lovely, some provided by Mrs Smith, we ate and then the games began.
There was a game of Truth or Forfeit, and I drew a question asking me to tell them all about my most embarrassing BDSM experience. My mind went blank at this point, because I could only think of one scenario and that involved Master.
I couldn't tell it without His permission and there was no way I could even think of anything else as the events of the diet pepsi enema filled my mind.
How could I tell a room of what were effectively strangers about the day Master filled me with a mixture of water and diet pepsi which well, let's just say didn't go the way He planned, but He gave permission and I told all.
Ah dear lol, well that's my dignity gone for good that's for sure.
Masters turn was next and I was instructed to carry out His forfeit, holy moly............5 minutes of waitressing topless.........I think my face must've been a picture.
So off came the bra and as there seemed little point covering up again I spent the rest of the evening bringing everyone drinks and food, the rest of them loved it. I wouldn't say I was thrilled by it, but it wasn't as bad as I'd have expected if I'd thought about it.
After everyone left we went to bed together, the best part of the day being held in His arms and just spending time together.
Our first New Year together, and it was very special, I don't think anyone there could fail to see how close we are.
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
"Hi,Just a short, one line message to say:
Damn, those eyes are great! And if you were looking I would be sending a very different message."
"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood
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