Thursday, 26 January 2012

Swimming In The Fish Pond

This lifestyle is so incestuous.
We're a small section of the UK population so there's bound to be some instances of others having been involved with someone from your past at some point, but there are times it gets really silly.
I've written previously about a woman I discovered was having a cyber relationship of some sort with my last Dom M.
She's also an ex playmate of S and still a very close friend.
Women have a way of making bitchy remarks that to observers seem like casual comments, or even quite friendly, when in fact they're the opposite.
I'd confided in S about the first encounter with her and how it made me feel. Last night she turned up at the party and I didn't recognise who she was, but knew I'd met her before.
First words out of her mouth were "apparently you really don't like me, but I don't know what I've done." Then she laughed.
I have told other people what happened, but my first thought was that S had told her what I'd said to him. I suspect that's why she did it, to undermine my trust in him.
Maybe it sounds paranoid, but that doesn't mean I'm wrong.
I just don't get why people can be like that. Is she pissed off because I'm with her ex? Despite the fact she has a Dom and several other playmates.
There she was surrounded by people who know her well and think she's wonderful and I'm just sat there feeling like I've been punched in the stomach.
It's probably the biggest negative about the lifestyle, so many connections to other people.
S says he's not told her what I said, but I am pretty sure he has talked to her about that first encounter, goodness knows why he felt the need to do that because all it's done is stir things up and make them worse as far as I'm concerned.
He can't see what my issue is, that I'm being over sensitive. Perhaps I am, but that doesn't change how I feel.
I feel even more awkward now about meeting up with her again because he's going to side with her no matter what she says. I know I need to try and ignore her and not let her words affect me, but that's easier said than done.
The play party was lovely, everyone had a good time and looking forward to the next one in February, hopefully I'll be there too.

"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."

1 comment:

K said...

"Women have a way of..." omg yes that quote is so true........then the poor men try to helps us resolve it, totally oblivious to whats going on, often making it worse lol..they try;)