Ahhh The Domly Ego

I played on Thursday, still have the bruises from it too.
I don't often play casually, but quite frankly I was frustrated, horny and needed to feel my sub side.
I arranged to play with someone I've known online for almost 2 years and through conversation decided he would be a safe and sane Top, although not suitable as my Dom.
Being inspected like a piece of meat, having him insert fingers to check if I'm wet from anticipation, not my thing at all, but as I'd agreed to submit to his wishes for the day, I complied.
I was caned for being late picking him up from the station, flogged some and then he began working on making my pussy as wet as possible, flooding he said.
The aim was to try and fist me, as I'm rather tight it was something I advised him would be unlikely.
I was correct.
Today is Monday and I'm still as sore as hell from his attempts to stretch me.
I'm very good at giving feedback whilst playing. I'll ouch and wriggle a bit if it hurts, but will always put myself back into position ready for more.
If I say it f'ing hurts and not in a good way, I expect that to be heard, not told it'll get better and start to feel good soon.
No it didn't.
I'm experienced enough to know the difference between good and bad pain.
His ego I think, he's trained quite a few subs/slaves over the years apparently and seems to have a set pattern of how he achieves his aims, which is fine, but you need to be flexible and I don't believe he was prepared to change his plans to fit me.
Teach me to play casually. I suspect it'll be a long time before I agree to that with someone I've not played with before.
I so need a Dom of my own to train.
Someone to grow with.
To learn about each other and how to please the other.


"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood