Tuesday, 13 December 2011

I'm confused

I've had a lovely few days, had some incredible sex and play. Had a few new experiences and enjoyed the company of some great people.
So what's the problem?
The problem is I really like him, but I want more than he does from a D/s relationship.
I'm trying to think if I should just enjoy what's on offer for now. I have to say he played me like a musical instrument. I had the most intense orgasms of my life and as I rarely cum at all, it's easy to imagine how heady that is.
I'm also suffering some sub drop, so know I'm not in the right frame of mind to make any decisions at the moment.
I need to write some more, get my head around all this.
It was an impulsive decision to accept his invitation to stay with him for a few days. I've been aquainted with him for about 3 years or more, but we'd not spent much time together.
I topped him a few months ago at a club event, there was definitely a connection, but the dynamics hadn't sorted themselves out.
He's very peaceful and relaxing to be around, a very generous and likeable man.
I'd be mad to not just accept what's on offer and enjoy the sex and play, wouldn't I?

"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."


Southern Sir said...

Sometimes you just have to go with the flow and not over analyze things.
you enjoy his company and being around him, enjoy that for now, relish the moment and who knows where it might lead.

DanesWood said...

Thank you Southern Sir.

This has all been very out of the blue, which is part of the problem, he wasn't at all what I expected to find.

We've had a really good talk this evening and that's helped tremendously, so for now we're going to let things flow and see what happens.

beau said...

Good luck DW. You must go with what feels right for you. Yes - as Southern Sir says, why not just live for the moment and enjoy what is on offer?

However I know that can be hard when you want something more. Also if you develop stronger feelings and attachment than he feels comfortable with then it could end in some heartache. You need to know whether you feel strong enough yet to cope with that if it comes.

Again - good luck, but take care

B xxxx

DanesWood said...

So true Beau and I'm trying to balance the fact he says he wants me to be a part of his life very much with the fact he wants us both to continue to see others.

Maybe he'll change in time and realise he can get all he needs from what he has now.

Maybe I'll have to accept that what I can give will never provide everything he needs.

I may be able to accept that I'm just one of several important people in his life, or perhaps I'll enjoy what time we have together and move on.

I do know I see him in my life for a long time one way or another.