The Munch Bunch

I had  a beautiful experience on Tuesday night. I went with S to the local munch that he organises. I knew a few of the people there, most I did not. I'm often a little shy in such situations, but I found myself talking to a couple of lovely people and before long I was having a lot of fun.
After the munch a few people came back to the flat with us for coffee and perhaps to play a little. Eight of us in all, sat around on the floor looking at toys and that included several violet wands.
S has a male sub/lover too and he and I have always got along, even before I got together with S. He was tired and sat beside me on the floor leaning on me and we cuddled and stroked each other. Eventually I suggested we went to bed and left everyone else to it as he had work in the morning and I was tired after getting very little sleep the night before.
I'd known we were to all three share the bed last night, so this seemed a good way to break the ice a little without either of us feeling pressured.
He agreed we should leave the others to party and off we went.
S followed me and gave me a hug, told me how awesome he thinks I am and that he'd loved how cuddly I looked with St.  He told me that he would be happy with whatever happened between us, that it was beautiful that the two people who mattered most to him were getting on so well.
I'm not sure how I felt, I agreed it was lovely how comfortable we felt together, but wasn't sure I wanted to more than cuddle. I'd been mulling it over in my mind for a while, because it's important to me that St feels I'm not trying to take his place. I'd expected at some point for the three of us to end up in bed together, but wasn't sure what I would do when it happened. Would I stroke and watch them both? Would I want to join in everything? Or would I take a back seat and await my turn.
I slipped into bed naked next to St, I'm not allowed to wear anything when I get into bed with S anyway. I lay with my back towards St, he put his arm around me and we talked quietly for a while, him stroking my back and arm, me nicely relaxed and beginning to drift off to sleep.
S came in to say goodnight to us both together, kissed us both passionately and told us again how beautiful it was to see us like this.
I snuggled down all comfy and relaxed, St was kissing my back and shoulders very softly as he continued to stroke me, soothing me to sleep.
We could hear everyone else in the next room having a good time, lots of laughs and talking, just too loud for me to shut it out completely and St was the same.
I laughed and said we should just have wild rampant sex and forget trying to sleep, it was already well after 5am and St had the alarm set for 7.30am.
As soon as I said it St behaved as though I'd taken a barrier down and began to kiss my body and stroke my breasts. After a few minutes his hand moved down between my legs and gently searched out my clit. I was quite turned on by now and St loved how wet I was already.
I must've been making some noises because the door opened and S came in. I remember him saying how lovely it was to see us together like this and he sat on the bed beside me and kissed me, stroked me and encouraged St to explore my body more. S stood and removed his clothes then climbed into bed with us both.
The details are rather blurred of who did what after that, but I know I was kissed passionately, finger fucked, licked and eventually fucked, by both of them.
I screamed to orgasm several times and throughout the whole experience S kept holding me, kissing me and telling me how beautiful I was, how happy I make him.
I do have some doubts about the longevity of this relationship, but no doubts that at the moment it's right for all three of us and I'm very happy to share this time with both of them.
What a lucky girl I am to have not one, but two lovers, although it only works with St because of S as far as I'm concerned. S is my main focus it's about the bond I'm building with him and St is a part of S, as I am.

"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood

Good Times Cumming

Getting ready to go see the lovely S tomorrow, I'm really very excited. Fantastic sex, good company and socialising with his friends.
Something I want to explore more with him is hypnosis, not written about my first experience with him, but it was very odd.
Cuddling me, stroking me and speaking quietly to me, we'd played a little and he was making sure I was ok I thought, then he told me I could release some emotion, whatever I felt I needed to and I burst into tears.
Crying is quite cathartic and I'm definitely someone who bottles up emotions, which he knows.
After holding me and comforting me we played some more and then he told me to go to sleep and wake up refreshed. I was out like a light, which is unusual and woke up feeling fabulous when he came and whispered in my ear.
It was only later that he told me he'd done some mild hypnosis on me to help me relax. I'm amazed it worked on me because I'm usually wound as tight as a drum.
Just maybe I'll get to experience some more of that over the next few days.
I've been helping a friend this last couple of weeks too, well I became her friend because of the really rough time she's going through at the moment and was asked to help her out.
She's lovely and I'm very pleased I've been introduced to her and I know she's going to need me and other friends around for a long time to come.
Her ex sub has outed her, reported their S&M activity to the police and accused her of doing it all against his will, assaulting him and buggering him with a dildo on numerous occasions.
After that he contacted her employer which has led to her dismissal as she was a social worker whose job it was to help abused and vulnerable people.
They told her one of the reasons for her dismissal is associating with undesirables (us). In my opinion her BDSM lifestyle makes her more qualified to help with abuse victims as consent is so vital to our way of life and belief.
Hard to believe you can spend 18 months with somone and them then treat you like that. Although he outed his previous Domme too when their relationship ended, so he's a history of it, just a shame my friend didn't know that before she got together with him.
I'm currently doing my bit to ensure as many in the community here know about him and are aware what he's capable of.
Usually people on the scene are very tight lipped about others, but thats enabled this piece of slime to carry on and hurt people. No more.



"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood

I'm confused

I've had a lovely few days, had some incredible sex and play. Had a few new experiences and enjoyed the company of some great people.
So what's the problem?
The problem is I really like him, but I want more than he does from a D/s relationship.
I'm trying to think if I should just enjoy what's on offer for now. I have to say he played me like a musical instrument. I had the most intense orgasms of my life and as I rarely cum at all, it's easy to imagine how heady that is.
I'm also suffering some sub drop, so know I'm not in the right frame of mind to make any decisions at the moment.
I need to write some more, get my head around all this.
It was an impulsive decision to accept his invitation to stay with him for a few days. I've been aquainted with him for about 3 years or more, but we'd not spent much time together.
I topped him a few months ago at a club event, there was definitely a connection, but the dynamics hadn't sorted themselves out.
He's very peaceful and relaxing to be around, a very generous and likeable man.
I'd be mad to not just accept what's on offer and enjoy the sex and play, wouldn't I?


"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood

Unexpected News

It seems I'm about to take a new lover, not what I expected at all that's for sure.
He's a poly switch, mostly Dominant and someone I've known for a couple of years although not well untill recently.
Quite a turn up for the books me even considering something like this, but he's a really lovely person and I think we can have some fun times together. I'm looking on him as a good friend with excellent benefits lol.
Sunday is expected to be our first intimate time together, a time to explore the possibilities and discuss how this is going to work between us.
I still want to find someone to be exclusive with, unless he would like a sub for us to share, but I'm not going to miss the opportunity to spend some quality time with an experienced and caring man.
Perhaps this is a small diversion on my journey, perhaps it's a new path, but fingers crossed either way it will be enjoyable for us both.
What a delight to have someone who really likes me, wants to spend hours finding what pleases me and no pressure whatsoever.
I've been mulling a few things over lately, getting more than a little disheartened about my lack of a sex life and prospect of finding a Dom. I think this will give my confidence a major boost to say the least.


"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood

Ahhh The Domly Ego

I played on Thursday, still have the bruises from it too.
I don't often play casually, but quite frankly I was frustrated, horny and needed to feel my sub side.
I arranged to play with someone I've known online for almost 2 years and through conversation decided he would be a safe and sane Top, although not suitable as my Dom.
Being inspected like a piece of meat, having him insert fingers to check if I'm wet from anticipation, not my thing at all, but as I'd agreed to submit to his wishes for the day, I complied.
I was caned for being late picking him up from the station, flogged some and then he began working on making my pussy as wet as possible, flooding he said.
The aim was to try and fist me, as I'm rather tight it was something I advised him would be unlikely.
I was correct.
Today is Monday and I'm still as sore as hell from his attempts to stretch me.
I'm very good at giving feedback whilst playing. I'll ouch and wriggle a bit if it hurts, but will always put myself back into position ready for more.
If I say it f'ing hurts and not in a good way, I expect that to be heard, not told it'll get better and start to feel good soon.
No it didn't.
I'm experienced enough to know the difference between good and bad pain.
His ego I think, he's trained quite a few subs/slaves over the years apparently and seems to have a set pattern of how he achieves his aims, which is fine, but you need to be flexible and I don't believe he was prepared to change his plans to fit me.
Teach me to play casually. I suspect it'll be a long time before I agree to that with someone I've not played with before.
I so need a Dom of my own to train.
Someone to grow with.
To learn about each other and how to please the other.


"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood

Plastic People

Why is that some people get off on lies and pretence?
I've yet to work out the reasoning behind that.
Inexplicably there are those who go out of their way to create and build a connection with you.
Will appear to be everything you were looking for and then either just disappear or come up with excuses why you can't meet.
Perhaps it's the thrill of the chase, the excitement that newness brings.
Why bother building something real and worthwhile when all you need do is sucker another person into believing you are what you say.
I've used the internet for over a decade as a way to meet people, sometimes just as a friend, sometimes more.
There are definitely fake vanilla people too, yet I'm convinced there is a greater proportion on BDSM websites.
Maybe it's because we generally have to be fairly secretive about our chosen way of life from the world at large.
Perhaps that's what draws these fantasists as they know there's little we can or will do to retaliate.
I'm also aware it's a phenomena not confined to any particular persuasion, sub or Dom/me, male or female.
Yesterday I was let down by someone, not the first time it's happened and I'm sure it won't be the last.
I'm lucky, I know there are a few genuine people out there as I've met some of them, but I am losing heart.



"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing." DanesWood

Subs, Slaves And?

"Oh no, I'd not do that all the time, that's for slaves and I'm a sub. I might do it as part of a session."

Part of an interesting conversation with a male sub. It fascinates me the difference in the mindset of a male sub to that of a female sub.

He told me all he wanted was to please the woman he served. When questioned about that and prodded a little with examples of what I'd expect that was the response I got.

Generally female submissives expect to offer all the extras, making their Dominant one a cup of coffee perhaps, cooking for them and taking care of their needs as part of their servitude and it just seems to be a natural part of the D/s.

Not so with an awful lot of male subs, although I'm sure some females fall nto this catagory too.

I refer to these as "do me" subs, for them it's all about what they want, the kind of play they want, catering for all their needs as a submissive.

To me that's a very one sided take take take attitude, for me D/s is about giving, no matter if you're the submissive or the Dominant.

I'm not going to explain to a sub I barely know all the things I could or would do to them, provide them with wank fodder. There are lots of websites they can go to for that, or a pro Domme.

For me this type of sub is not a submissive at all, just a kinkster out to satisfy their own kinks. I'm not sure if they don't realise that, or actually believe that's what submission is.

I suspect some need a lesson.

I always make it very clear to anyone I agree to play with that it's what I want, when I want it. I respect limits, but I am not going to give them an A La Carte menu to choose from. They ask to submit to me for a session, sometimes I'll agree and accept that submission. But it's on my terms.

I know there's the age old discussion of what defines a submissive and at what point they're a slave, but now there's that third option it seems. Perhaps someone can come up with a name for it.


"The most powerful sexual organ in the body is our brain, open your mind and allow your fantasies free reign, mutual pleasure between consenting adults is a wonderful thing."
DanesWood